Wednesday, January 31, 2007
InwardConfloption
I'm back from Journalism Skills. Apparently, it wasn't too much of a pen stuck. I reckon , those written abcdefg(s) does make sense. Okay, on a right track I hope. Not like I'll be able to replenish the empty spacing lines in-betweens. Haa. Lucks~
Bottomline, I'd just hope to get a pass.
(I wouldn't mention D because a pass appears to be better?! Uhh, yes, Nich's philosophy. Stick with it). Haa.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
InwardConfloption
When you feel so abandoned and depressive; the world's detaching you away from reality. The only individual companion's the notebook machine, and I'm seeking this minimal amount of refuge from it.
Looking back, I've posted abundant despondent entries. Well, life's bittersweet. Take it or leave it. Good things of life naturally doesn't go our way.
Insinuate doubts from the verbals/non-verbals?(!)
Shoot me.
Back to mugging session :(
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Will we be our life planner? I miss the day when you provided me with a rubbing-down, reluctantly of course. There I was securing my head onto your lap, and slumbered. Realising that you dozed off with your arms around me when my eyes opened, I love to watch you sleep; it resembles my favourite portrait when the sun kisses the sea.
How strange, the moon looks so alluring for the first time. I peeped out of my checked-like window panes & it's yolk tubby :) It manifests low-hanging. I wish I could embark on a journey right up to the moon and leave all behind. Aww. Thats Primo! Sounds like a plan aye?!
Okay now, goodnight Folks & Tubby Moon.
I'm off to bed.
Monday, January 29, 2007
InwardConfloption
Examination's drawing near. It's time for me to drown myself into endless piles of booklets with pieces of papers. But, why am i not mugging?! I need someone to nudge me up; to provide me with the caution light.
Once again, Eugene's going to leave my cell hushed for one two days. Outfield baby :) I'll hear from you in two days time.
First paper's just one pathetic day away. Mercilessly, alphabets are hypnotizing me. Shower me some luck.
Packup and lets flyaway. Why not?
Saturday, January 27, 2007
InwardConfloption
We (Eugene & I) were being a smoke machine as usual, just standing a few metres away from the bustop and BIGG FCUKK! Daddy drove past! Okay, i shall not deny. I was panic-strickened to the extreme that i could reach out my hands and receive the out-dropping heart of mine. I started glancing at my cell praying that I wouldn't receive any calls or texts from Daddy. Next, hallucinations of the cell ringing should just stab me right through. That's when I mutated from a smoking machine to a paranoic machine. Damn! So, darling provided me with ideas to inflict all the blames onto him (That's if Daddy really caught us). Never mind that, afterwhich, town-ing with Eugene & Bedok-ing with Eugene, Danny, Karen, Leon as well as Chris was fabulous Timesthree! Contentment of the stomach with noodles, chicken wings, satays, oysters and sugarcanes. Aww, how awesome yet sinful! I love such outings. They love such outings.
WE ALL LOVE SUCH OUTINGS :D
She adores every long bus ride with him.
Friday, January 26, 2007
InwardConfloption
How much's left undiscovered. How many riddles left unresolved?Presence of the concealed, I'm left to battle with.
InwardConfloption
Biological Clock reads O Six Twenty-Seven a.m at this nick of time & my brain's not tuning down. Some random thoughts flushed in.
Where will we go from here. When will we stop?
Thursday, January 25, 2007
InwardConfloption
Haircut Haircut Haircut with Debbie!! ! TianCher joined us and we ended up swallowing all his crappy comments and nonsensical, not-much-of-a-help advices. Informal mugging session during the evening. Another day passed.Goodnight Thursday.
And, Eugene tomorrow. I miss you plenty :( I don't like!
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You know. Sometimes, its the thought that matters. Truckloads of thanks Bin :)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
InwardConfloption
You brought me that something which I thought it cease to exist.Usher The Early Morning Yolk
Late
Lied
Cabby
Spent
Eugene
Bus
Sun
Hans
TTSH
Ramen
Bus
Bubble Tea
Eugene's Home
Slumber
Bus
Rain
Long Johns Silver
TTSH
Cabby
Home
Slumber
Dinner
Dorothy Aunt's Place
Home
It seems like ages since I've last spent these many days with Eugene almost continously. I'm right at the ninth level. BABY FRIDAY BABY! And did I mention that I love to irritate you with my raptured Canto?! :D
I know you adore it as much as me LUH HOR! I make you laugh okay :))
WHATEVER LA EUGENE!
Monday, January 22, 2007
InwardConfloption
Saturday;
Town-ed & Bugis-ing (In search of that pathetic vest to no avail). Jack's pub next with Eugene plus his army little brothers, a virgin trip for them. & without a doubt, Eugene got his money all worth. Thanks to me. To me. To me!! ! (Hey darling, you've got a small free of charge martell okay!) Eugene and I bought an Adidas top for myself :)
Sunday;
Slept late, woke up late (There was this minor conflict last night. Baby, you know what!). Town-ed. Both gobbled like there's no tomorrow. Fcuk-Sinfulness! All Darling's fault! Went Chipy at Far East for Sausages and ShiLin for Taiwanese Chicken. Firstly, He requested for more chilli powder for the chicken and the man there was.. okay. Speechless. We were practically feeding ourselves we chilli powder. I reckon, he was under some homicidal tendency. Next, Baby dropped his entire opened-bottle of satay-sticks. The hilarious thing was, the assistant pointed his finger at Eugene and said to his colleague " NO. I didn't drop it. He did!" And as for me, I just stood there staring at Eugene and got blamed for staring. Okay, eventhough I got scolded by Darling for staring at him (With a -Oh Eugene. Your Fault. Your Fault. You dropped those sticks. Why didn't you pick up the sticks that you dropped?) I just cant stop laughing! As if I'm in a laughing academy :D Stupid Eugene, so stupid! DumbDumb! You made me laugh my toes off.
Next stop was Mustafa. Haa. We forgot, it was a Sunday! The dark human traffic there was horrendous. It could inflict a stop-breathing for us due to suffocation :( Darling got me my bangles (Which he claimed they will break easily) and we had midnight prawn noodles, Hotties & Beancurd Steam Prawns!
Monday;
TTSH in the young morning for Eugene's checkup. Had Hans's Bacon Fried Egg Sandwich for breakfast. Yummy Yummy! Afterwhich, Lunch-ing and his book-in.
You antagonize me, you make me wanna strike you with a brick.
But, i still love you. okay?.
Friday, January 19, 2007
InwardConfloption
Today marks the final day of school & its awesomely nutty. Asked to stand and answer some silly questions before i could even lay my ass on the seat for five minutes. Town-ing with Eugene, Debbie, TianCher and Karey joined us after work (After Debbie left). Last but not least, Eugene's done with his tattoo-ing! (Valentines present from me to him) Nice, I like :)
Thursday, January 18, 2007
InwardConfloption
Check this out. What they did to this poor little happy meal dolly :(
One (Debbie) Two (JoLin) Three (Alex) pyschotic nutcases in the making.
p/s: I'm excluded in this demoniac event. Saw me? In black (Centre from the left & the right), Im luxury-ing! Evidence Evidence!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
InwardConfloption
I am so fed-up. So fed-up with my body and all around. I've only slumbered for four pathetic hours, I'm tremendously exhausted and weak but my brain's refusing to shut. I just ended up laying on my bed for more than six hours. I'm goddamn pissed with everyone and everything. FCUK. I don't know what the fcuk is wrong with me, I don't know what the fcuk has gone into me. Either i sleep far too much as compared to normal (Sixteen hours) or just couldn't get to bed at all. Right, perhaps some of my friends are fcuking right. It is about time i consult a fcuking doctor for some fcuking sleeping pills or whatsoever. Anything, anything to make me feel that I'm still on pace with this fcuking spinning world.
I'm feeling so pathetic. No. I mean, I am pathetic. I'm screwed, same goes to my body.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
InwardConfloption
Lets refrain from aruging over trivial issues that can be overlooked. I do not see the worth. Today's not an easy day.
InwardConfloption
I saw that man together with his wife. Like finally, after so long. The man who effortlessly dispensed burning hell unto me (& my family), literally screwed up our life and squeezed my tears dry. I hate him. I hate him. And I hate him! I abhor him till the extend whereby i wish he could just die right before my eyes. The sins he compelled will NEVER be forgotten. These unglam memories inflicted hurts so badly that it parallels so much like the end of the world for me; all I ever did was to weep helplessly -to sleep.
Since he threw my life once giving me an odious time picking it back. I will make him suffer ten hundred thousand times more than what I have been through. He'll have a taste of it, of how it feels like to be living in a family, under a roof filled with chaos. I want him to live in regret, for his entire life from now and after.
How funny. He didn't even dare to look straight into my eyes. FCUK YOU, REN. FCUK YOU.
You will never comprehend the pain in me, till date. How much I teared in the middle of the night, how much i shiver whenever I allowed my thoughts to run wild thinking history's repeating itself. How very much my brother was scared out of his wits when receiving annoynomous calls making brutish remarks. How much and how very much of everything. I want you to be sorry for my tears and pain. This enmity between us (Yourself, Myself & Daddy) shall never be resolved. I understand, I should not be washing dirty linens in public. And so, vague details.
I Love You, Daddy.
Monday, January 15, 2007
InwardConfloption
The Twinnys (Alex & Jossy) are up to these during the wees :D
Detail: For some after suicide purposes.
Debbie's my mate for 07's Valentines! (Programmes are not planned up yet, but soon.)
I'm your Man ;)
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I Miss You.
You, You & You.
You-Gene.
:)
Thursday, January 11, 2007
InwardConfloption
My personalised Ipod Mini has been bedridden for quite a period of time. Meanwhile, I thought i could survive with Eugene's mp3 since he's in the army. Ha. unforseen circumstances, heard of? I damaged it within two months. I'm feeling guilty over it and I still am. seriously.
Now, i'm under this irresistible craving for Ipod Nano Red! I started surfing for details and found.. BUY NOW. 199$! Jossy jumped (gapping centimetres away from the ceiling), merriment surpassed me, I so much wanted to scream in exuberance! I thought, Dirt Cheap & yes! I'm getting it! But as I stamp my eyes onto the monitor once again, I realised, its 199$US. Damn Damn Damn. Shitofcuk. I'm on the Apple US website! Okay, I'm brainless; Dodo! How funny, I'm laughing now! At myself.
Perhaps, I should just send Mini for maintenance and exchange for a new set instead (which is going to cost me only a minimal amount of 108$S).
But,
Ipod Nano Red's Too Much An Uncontrollable Lust :D
Never mind, pending :)
Perhaps, I should just send Mini for maintenance and exchange for a new set instead (which is going to cost me only a minimal amount of 108$S).
But,
Ipod Nano Red's Too Much An Uncontrollable Lust :D
Never mind, pending :)
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
InwardConfloption
I miss you and i hope that a needle's sitting beside me so that i could prick and burst.
Then evaporate right up above, into the thin air -and so, i wouldn't tear up inside. When Friday comes, this is when you'll sight my reappearance.
From the breast of our homeland. Our new world tries to spit us out
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
InwardConfloption
What more can i do, when i love you.
And i made you mine.
My work of art.
I know, proffering me with small like gifts and suprises has always been your premier forte,
And misconductings' mine.
But, you've never hung your guard high against me.
We have hitched on this magnificient rollercoaster journey ride.
And i am loving every single minute of it.
I fathom, you're the one.
Its our seventh month episode.
Baby, you're beautiful.
Thanks for all, and this never-ending love.
My favourite Mixtape
You say goodnight,
In my mind,
Im sleeping next to you.
Never shut your doors on me.
Because baby,
Im staying.
I wish you could come back and hug me now.
p/s: Happy Birthday Daren Cousin :)
Sunday, January 07, 2007
InwardConfloption
Army has undoubtedly nauseated me. like who's in the right mind to be able to swallow down their devil-may-care and spasmodic inane way of handling situations, causing individuals not being able to get the amount of rest they deserved. if so, aren't medical certificates as well as doctors/specialists considered a redundancy? fcuk, wolfish scumbags. perhaps, these people lack of ordinary quickness or are proceeding from mental dullness; incorrigibly informal screwballs who suffers from a deficiency of seeing right and wrong. have they even learnt or maybe just heard of unforseen circumstances.? as if anyone would offer you a recognition for your last minute apprehensive actions. who gives a fcuk anyway.
these demoniacs ought to be kept indoors, inside the insane asylum. all good for nothing. okay, shalt bestow them with a new name they befittingly be worthy of, the Willies! -pussillanimous.
they enjoy self glorification and menacing,(?) fine, we'll have the tables turned down one day.
Eugene's severely under the weather and admitted into the medical office. please be okay darling, nothing should happen to you.
iloveyou.
Friday, January 05, 2007
InwardConfloption
Bahaa. I've finally received my long awaited tongue piercing! !! So now, done and dusted with. I'm contented and satisfied :) Okay, tongue's swollen and bloated. I cant speak right, pronounciation scuks core and i cant eat. Try to envisage this, a single piece of pear (A single piece, not a whole!) occupied fifteen minutes of my time to get it down. Haa. Never mind, I still Love it. <3> I hope that it can assist me in my weight losing project which has been on going for days, weeks, months, years. I'll be thankfully grateful. Heh.
Saturday's tomorrow. OLEH ! Hon Hon Hon...
Thursday, January 04, 2007
InwardConfloption
Yayy Yayy Yayy! !! Its eleven thirty two pm right now and I'm finally done with my darn Journalism Assignment within my estimated time! And obviously, didn't complete the minimum of two thousand words. Haa. Like who cares? He might be having his mouth disgustingly wide open when yawning while marking my sheets and offering me some pathetic grades for some grades sake. Okay, i'm like perfectly liveless today, woke up at four pm and now i'm listless plus my tummy's growling the shit out of me. But so much, i'd prefer to sleep. Bottom line, im Gigantic. Fcuk. Now, im entirely exhausted from cooping in, minimal amount of sunlight leads my soul to bed with a pillow under my head. sweet.
I miss Eugene. I'll see you on Saturday. & I want you to miss me a thousand times more than how much you're missed by me :)
My predestination, are you?
wandering the streets, where underneath's the world.
what about me & you when theres me and you.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
InwardConfloption
how you abandoned what someone says and usher the mornings like every other. then, pull yourself out of bed one day, digesting a message which allows you to indulge in smiles plastered with grins. its made known to your heart, you're loved; thought of and, theres someone out there who truly cares but does not reveal unless needed.
a simple five cents text signifies so much.
unbelievable, you were always here.
it is beyond belief.
indeed, without a doubt. such a great buddy :)
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
InwardConfloption
when insomnia holds one hostage,
it resembles walls breaking down.
an intervening space's what all sees.
this is where we escort minds on a holiday across the tall sketchy sky.
from the uninviteds to the convival ones.
she, herself loathe judgements,
peculiarly those stamped through the glasses.
nonetheless, manipulating mind game's one of her concerned relishment.
she's mocked.
life's brittle,
and so, whats the intricate reasons to love living this life?
like snowflakes fall and melt.
human elegance's a side splitting thing,
who says, believe what you see and non-verbal's a ditch.
he stood up high
and she found him among the crowd,
some says shes gonna crown a clown;
likewise, others says he.
she's thinking of him,
from the corners of her mind.
where destination of worth lies.
shall never try to contemplate an answer from her,
they never come easy.
love's magical; unfathomable.
read it.
be my default.
tell me,
whats the cost of being without you.
you're not here; you're offering me a chance to miss you.
triumph;
baby, whats your act of exulting?
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in truth, i've got piles to say to you. so much, so suffocating. to question, to tell, and i have no idea where to start. however, tables turned when i finally set visuals on you, i left myself mum because if i were to speak, i know, i'll have my verbals clenched. there's so much stored inside that i cant wait to let-off. instinct kills, many say they resemble the mythos; some says they'd rather believe than disbelieve. without a doubt, your words melt my unyielding heart and made me skip a beat. still, doubts in your words are throwing me down. i stress my thinking nerves when your lips move. stories clicking with remarks of the past embark on its playbacks in umpteens. i truly abhor this, something's missing, harshly marking a cruel gap between love and trust, it parallels a monography, represented by lines; without color.
dont you be my let-down.
i heard, 'Jossy, you finally found.'
but,
does he feel the same?
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