Friday, December 29, 2006
InwardConfloption
biological clock's reading seven thirty am right now and im still not asleep. i wonder whats keeping me awake. definitely not caffeine, so, its probably the nicotines running down. perhaps, maybe.
Poor Jon, i'm occupied emo-ing to him now. haa. for nothing. as you know, emo sessions arrive naturally when you least expect it. We cant sleep.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
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Clash immense love unto me.
Tell me its no game.
Stamp in doubts no more.
We're where we belong.
My mind's having me hostaged.
With visions of you and i.
Got me drowning under parcels of his amour.
He;
An entanglement romance.
never seek for refuge when you dont see me, i'll be coming home baby.
if you could, imagine me without you.
So, what do you see?
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
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Questions, Questions and more Questions unresolved. Definitions unexplainable. When earthlings are convinced that they are knowledgeable to everything, this is where contradictions come in and you leave with a slit crack in your brain with empty juices.
Liang, Welcome to this debating session with me :)
Haha.
Questions debated:
(1) How do you define LOVE?
(2) How would you know if you really love a person?
Wacky and moronic questions kill time for us both. Mahaa
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Robin today :)
im fcukn under the weather and my head's spinning like a lawnmower for more than eight hours, even medications assistance's redundant. its so parallel to me like i've contracted some major incurable disease. okay, this is effing shit.
Envisage this, you're indisposed with this manslaughtering misery in the head and emptiness in the heart.
Nostalgia; the condition of longing for you.
A Lack Of Color & Photobooth shall be her companion for now.
Monday, December 25, 2006
InwardConfloption
Merry Christmas To All :DEugene's Gramms & Liquid Kitchen-ing!
I truly adore every single bit of Eugene. Him and his little syrupy surprises that ushers me into Oh-So-Mighty-Love! Distinguishingly, enjoy enjoy enjoy and fun fun fun!
Eugene, Thank you for everything.
You brought me this peculiar Xmas :)
She latched everything he said tonight into her head.
Friday, December 22, 2006
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Who shall not agree
Love's a delicate subject.
All that surrounds seem to bore
Blinding lights are tearing
hollow roads are wearing.
She've done all to appease emptiness within.
Still,
Something's missing.
She always smile, because she's hiding something else.
lock me out of your coridoor, leave me by the stairs.
I think,
if you would, i would.
She miss Him;
Oh Reel Love. Y
Again, yipppppeeeeee! Countdown to Xmas and seeing Eugene tomorrow, like finally :)
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
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Town with TianCher, and a tiny little while with Debbie and RongNa.
Jossy finally sees some shine.
Some sunshine :) and she is happy.
Christmas's coming. Christmas Christmas Christmas & Mr Santa Claus!
HO HO HO!x3
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
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you made my day within a short thirty minutes or less.
Ours, ours ours. when you take the seat beside me :)
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i cant resist indulging myself with Chocolates & Chocolates. and more iChocolatesyou. its not like my weight needs no more intensive observation or contemplation. but well, craving's a killer, especially when it comes to diabetic addictions. therefore, i severely need to punch a stop to gobbling if i wish to look delicate and meet up to my precise superficials :( how sad, and who says munching is heavenly?
You will never know how much
When every raindrops count
If we resemble them
Us shall never know how much love's love.
If wishes are true
And whats reality?
if my cell's beeping now, and your voice gradually spring up.
when its cold outside, who's there?
Monday, December 18, 2006
InwardConfloption
okay, i feel fcuked effortlessly these days. so easily fcuked so long as you manage to prick my displeasure/annoyance vein. and then, i've come to understand pre menstrual syndrome's just a come and go excuse to get a getaway from certain probings maybe, or a better soothing sentence indirectly stating, please shut the fcuk up and leave me alone.
and as i grow up visualising various happenings and experiencing different stages, i realise, agitations in me leads to homicidal tendencies (perhaps from young, i don't know). Haha
Baby's under the weather. you got to be sacking at this moment. take much care please.
and
i miss you plenty.
Goodnight all.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
InwardConfloption
i've undiscovered the glamorous. you're the glamour; the glamorous in you.
perhaps, you havent realise.
i Stucked my eyes on you to watch you slumber.
and i go to sleep safe and sound, knowing my love's kept with you.
baby, its you. i heart <3
p/s: i hate to cam whore these days, due to one Major breakout.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
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nice. the days so far scraped pass adequately. felicity and boisterous merrymaking's all fulfilled till undivided. however, weatherman hasn't been acting tame, its junking my trip to the farmway; but its never going to demolite the crave i behold.you know, how captivated am i to see you taking the seat beside me. and this tale of me to have met you proved to be a bonanza to me :) euphoric exaltation.
thanks for the cellphone, a Christmas gift from you to me. its whole hog adored adored adored!!! by me!
i'll never get enough of saccharines with you around. you lead to sweetness temptation when i dont usually carry a sweet tooth around. you're like an all in all carousal merrymaking in my life, blasting me with endless raptureness.
haven't you heard of it? you resemble so much like an only last priceless gem. a gem i'll bid for, no matter what. i completely reckon, you're superiored with the liberty to dig out bottom of the heart smile from me.
Monday, December 11, 2006
InwardConfloption
her, whose heart and mind's running in a whirl, she needs comfort and ample time in settling her thoughts. contradiction's the dominator calling the shots in her life. the world's so much parallel to be spinning around her, filling up with tons and millions whys. she's piled up with so many questions left undiscovered, and so many doubts left unanswered. is she not handling situations well enough?
she wondered what his words revealed, shes in need of the answer to at least; ease.
she wondered what his words revealed, shes in need of the answer to at least; ease.
she fcukn hate it. she irks to sound similar to some paranoid bitches. this taught her, always reveal inners and never hold them back. perhaps, she hasn't been herself, not even the least, needless to mention, to the brim. she enjoys holding back her emotions purely due to the fact that she'll never allow anyone to inflict wounds into her, let alone, take her for granted. she've learnt to love herself more than anything else in the world, she and no one else.
many times, one ought to be realistic. never wish for perfections when you understand love isn't always so fantastic, or probably. never even fantastic.
many times, one ought to be realistic. never wish for perfections when you understand love isn't always so fantastic, or probably. never even fantastic.
i'd hope for an answer, im thinking too much.
how could you leave me clueless.
my mind's twirling and temperature isn't depleting. yet, i cant sleep.
i miss the mornings and afternoons. set some time allowances for both, i need to be alone. and you know, just one call from me.. killed me. just one reply text from me.. killed me. i felt like i just stabbed myself right through.
silly, how silly. i took a detailed glance at myself and felt like an entertainer.
or do i not know you well enough to stamp trust into us?
right now. i refuse to think. i refuse to set visuals on pictures & objects i see us, i hope, im not acting like an infantine.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
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Jossy HEART todate!
Today marks Eugene's Passing Out Parade (POP). with a blink of an eye, the unhurried and dreadful one two three months are finally over. YAYY! im elated and gleaming to the extreme because this refers to him being able to accompany me for one two three four five six seven days. well, i'll take it as a recognition for myself for enduring these three months without sufficient love; simply, an award for myself. haa. Oh yes, and did i mention that my baby's dedicated with the Platoon Best Award? Im soooooo utterly proud of you! That's my baby :D
Vivo and headed home due to the fact that school's on tomorrow. thank Eugene for homework-ing on my behalf :)
He's sleeping now. Goodnight baby.
he built this flight of stairs; it leads all the way up, to that particular cloud stating number nine.
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I love you, I love you & I love You, Eugene.Y
Saturday, December 09, 2006
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Happy Half A Year Anniversary Hon.
I Heart You <3
Down jump around
Talk about true romance you give me 1 out of 9
Never wanna let you go, You know you make me feel alright
Keep on whispering in my ear tell me the things I wanna hear
Cuz its true that's what I like about you
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it is one of the extreme decayed days spent in my entire 9teen years. i was bored to the optimum and i sacked my way through.
Oh fcuk-fcuk-fcuk. things aint going right. it seems so much that my worst fears inching at an exceptional rate. somehow, approaching at the so not appropriate time. okay, i am desperately needing sufficiency in time to settle mindheart thoughts. i'll wheeze my way out.
i know, this is a repugnant dream.
because, i wrote your heart blocks my path just this afternoon.
i reckon, i apprehend whats got into me. Its a Women's thing; and i effing hate it.
Friday, December 08, 2006
InwardConfloption
Town with Jolin, Debbie and Kevin for a short while since school's missed. and, Thank you YW for the help (for speaking against your conscience and accompanying) :D
alright. met up with the seven fellow mates and other two ex-fellow mates (plus some acquaintances) at Jack's pub after the embarrassing wedding. it was such a clumsy and unmanageable wedding attendance from me. it was all a microsopic silly mistake a step i took, furthermore, it drives me nuts thinking back of me dressing in top, skirt and birks while others dressed in gowns and bewitching; enticing dresses with various glamorous and dainty hairdos causing me to hide behind the boys each and every step i take; just making way by the sideline of the ballroom. HAHA. bottomline, the wedding attendance was a super duper super duper last minute notice.
the pubbing session was, normal(.?) as it is always the case, some get their arse home drunk, and some not.
Today, one spitted out a long haul kept secret, a secret kept well distinctively. an issue it did occupy me and topsy turvy my emotions/feelings during the days back. maybe, i'm the last to know, perhaps, this is the time to prove my hypothesis right. anyway, there will never be this day when you'll come to know that your secret is being made known to me. lets not meddle with rewind monopolies, i adore the way it is.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
InwardConfloption
you know, life gets so weak and meaningless sometimes. you just shun off all that surrounds as well as the may-not-prick. you'll tend to plunge into self reflection, reminisce the saccharine and the not so happy memories and, play trial and error thinking who are the essential candidates in your dully monotonous life.
and as you caper yourself with this little mind game, you'll start questioning and turn skeptical.
"How do you define essential candidates in your life?"
she dead wish to be left alone when she hates the emotional ride she might eventually hitch on unknowingly.
despondent with a little barrenness in within; which makes me mentally unproductive. i need a distinctively major release from this inner incommodious feelings. they're excruciating hard; pounding like they never did.
i miss you, but theres one two three more days. such agonies.
now i wish i wasn't even in love. now im inflicted with negative auras with regards to relationships magnified by a million times :(
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
InwardConfloption
Not like imma superiored with big boobs. just the gate :)
Haha. i'm indulged with this dominant urge for a strenuous jogging session after peeping out of my jailed-like checks window. thought so much like a Divine Act.Laugh, just laugh.
I'm FAT and i need to get rid of them like, instanteously.
coming to think of it, so what.
I'm only human, i mean, humans tend to get fat(.?)
i think, i think.
he loves it, he thought it was nothing but some great partying cause he've got no shit life out there.
no no, not think. this must be it :)
Haha.
Poorthing.
Eugene's something with no antidote. You're the rendevous where our hearts meet <3
come home soon.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
InwardConfloption
ticking clock's reading six twenty-one am. and this is psychotic, im creating all posts that i wish to pen down stuck at all in a moment, flipping through my iShape calender certaining that the dates correspond together, tallys. i've been languid for the past days, not like i obtain scanty time in the world in fact, i've possessed excessiveness of it. but, i chose to exhaust them sacking/couch potato-ing.
so what now. my brain's determining what i ought to have for breakfast later on, its such an exceptive and perilous decision to generate. because, ( I haven't taken breakfast ever since i don't know when.) and since i have to drag my entire out of bed for tuition in the morning before school, so. Breakfast, why not?
eat Monsters for Breakfast :D
right, perhaps. i know you inside out too much to love you. i do, do i?
Fabulous, i cant get to sleep. effing encore.
no harm trying.
Good Morning Everyone.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
InwardConfloption
you'll be left uncontacted for the constant five days; well, like i've said, army the damned has stolen your time for me without a blink of an eye. nevertheless, your cell's still gonna receive texts from me each and every day eventhough there isn't a clue when you'll actually be viewing them :) i miss you. and im pinning for that one week, looks approaching. but it seems so near, yet so far.
romantic isn't the perogative of the young(?)
Friday, December 01, 2006
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