rain's disastrous.
some says; sunshine after the rain.
such incongruity, like a contradiction.
shes still standing strong on her feet against the hard unfeeling tiles countering all unnecessities, retaliating those prodigal random emotions. emotions that pile up intensively in millions, they're so much of an unimaginable killer; it makes one harder to breathe.
biological clock's not waiting, not stopping.
its about time to scrutinize what we desire in life.
generating our plans in achieving our girl's dream.
even so; it seems so near yet so far.
this twisted portrait looks so unsubstantial.
or maybe,
i dont even have a dream.
okay, this is getting bad. so bad and pathetic.
i think i need a murdering machine; to rip my head off.

im in search of this SJC bear here. anyone whos willing to sell it please let me know. price's negotiable. i wan it so fcukn badly. badly. badly. badly. badly.