Wednesday, September 27, 2006
InwardConfloption
SHE KNOWS THAT HE LOVES HER; LIKEWISE, SHE LOVES HIM.
being skeptical; how its bound to be a heartbreak situation. selfishness's her flaw, yet she chose to live wif it, dis gradually grew to b da way to counteract pandora's box. she has so much grown from an innocent liv'n doll into someone whom's inexplicable to comprehend. she refus'd to bow to possessories, she blieves; dis might bring her dwn. excruciate's not in her vocab, shes not gona fall, she wouldn allow herself to plunge; she'll cushion herself frm al criticals. shes not creatn a barrier fo puerile thoughts, instead; she allow'd 'em for further driftn under her will, her own accord. she disgust losin, she wouldn tear dwn her pride; its da last thing she'l ever do.
nw she realis'd, its time for a chng, or; undergo da risk of losing someone. she builds a pillar in disguise, a pillar to create a vacancy between herself and realities; a vacancy which breaks apart. she lacks reliances; convictions, she searches for 'em frantically, n ended up wif annihilations. shes doubt'n herself, los'n herself, hidd'n n undetect'd. she barrels away whenever meanness was implement'd. shes running her own parade, a show of her very own, she doesn' nd anyone to validate to her, no complies's nd'd. she ventures on her own individual n noone else, she nds no others to enter into da doors to her heart. she understands da nd to get a getaway, she knows da redundances of dese. shes lik any other girls, mindset being able to rule over da heart isnt prohibit'd. dese intrications kill'd n drain'd her away, away frm love.
she loves herself more thn anythn' else in da world; even more thn her piles of gold, she nds to let her guard off, she knows. please forgive her, shes stil livin' in self delusions. shes left hollow'd.
they dont kno what goes on when the lights go out, but know the road is still long. temperatures rising, i dont wanna feel im in a wrong place to be real.
Digressing,
YAYYYY! IM SO HAPPY. I'VE FINALLY FOUND DA ANSWER TO MYSELF !
Question:
- why do i always inflict irrelevant thoughts into a relationship?
Answer:
- BECAUSE, MY TEACHER DIDNT TEACH ME HOW TO LOVE. IT WASNT IN THE SYLLABUS, NOT EVEN NOW. :)
bahahahahhaa.
well, i gt dis answer after daz'n outta da panes fo estimately, twenty minutes. and im soso satisfied wif da answer i got for myself !! lalalalaaaa.
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