Saturday, September 30, 2006
InwardConfloption
da cookies darling bought for me.
while waitn for stay alive.
HK cafe. 'supper.
its darln's nd book'out today!
diner at his plce, movie (stay alive), shopp'n, supper n superr slac'n at muh place!!
its simply ador'n to go aniwher wif my baby. smth i'd always lov to luxuriate in :) i brand it da most magnanimous moment of da entire wk; da moments non-replacable. hw stupefy'n, da love we shred is overpower'n da endless sea; da love we shar'd is one in a million. mi love's unambiguously blossom'n fo him relentlessly. i kno dat he's da one for me, i'd tk no other for an answer.
he brought me to clouds nine.
a kinda heaven, i found.
a place i'd nvr wana leave,
a place i'd nvr wana bid.
its him i honor; i'l tk da seat next to him. hw much i wana inflict hindrance to time nw, and so, tmr wil nvr come. i wldn' b play'n another wait'n game. -a game i so much wana tk a miss.
and million thanks baby fo da amos cookies. :) muacks. i love 'em. and i rmb'd his piece to me.
"whn i book'out, you're da first person on my mind. i got you da cookies, wif da stupid box. blarddii expensive fo some stupid cookies" LOL. :D .. .. ..dumbb, bt i like. hahaa.
I HEART YOU DARLING !!
while waitn for stay alive.
HK cafe. 'supper.
its darln's nd book'out today!
diner at his plce, movie (stay alive), shopp'n, supper n superr slac'n at muh place!!
its simply ador'n to go aniwher wif my baby. smth i'd always lov to luxuriate in :) i brand it da most magnanimous moment of da entire wk; da moments non-replacable. hw stupefy'n, da love we shred is overpower'n da endless sea; da love we shar'd is one in a million. mi love's unambiguously blossom'n fo him relentlessly. i kno dat he's da one for me, i'd tk no other for an answer.
he brought me to clouds nine.
a kinda heaven, i found.
a place i'd nvr wana leave,
a place i'd nvr wana bid.
its him i honor; i'l tk da seat next to him. hw much i wana inflict hindrance to time nw, and so, tmr wil nvr come. i wldn' b play'n another wait'n game. -a game i so much wana tk a miss.
and million thanks baby fo da amos cookies. :) muacks. i love 'em. and i rmb'd his piece to me.
"whn i book'out, you're da first person on my mind. i got you da cookies, wif da stupid box. blarddii expensive fo some stupid cookies" LOL. :D .. .. ..dumbb, bt i like. hahaa.
I HEART YOU DARLING !!
Friday, September 29, 2006
InwardConfloption
school.
slack'n wif jolin n debbie; b'bombers.
out wif siongwei to catch a movie n get some stuffs; haunt'd apartments.
time's expeditious today, wif a blink of an eye; sticklike lamps beside da streets were litt'd up, resembl'n da lil stars in da sky. its phenomenal whre dese sticklikes bring me to, hw al da memories start rumbl'n bac in baggages. sad'rhapsodiac ones; bittersweet memors. i jus heart sticklikes so much. i rear pleasure by daz'n at 'em, a certain kinda luxury; extravagance i found.. smth dat enables me to flutter to a plce not anyone belongs to, somewhr wif composure; tranquility fo myself - my kinda world, i long to be in.
hw heart ranchn. two stories i heard; along da line. girlfriends into arms of another dur'n a guy's ns period. no doubt, its reality. bottomline is; da love's gotta b strong to withstand any temptations. noone forsees da future, noone knos wad da future holds. al bks exits wif a last page, whr da story ends. wel, i postulate dis philosophy's a linkage to evythn'. dere isnt forever, al has to come to an end; its jus a mattr of time. thus, evryone's accompani'd wif love souvenirs anywhr dey head to, anyone dey turn to. nonetheless, love souvenirs are wht engenders loneliness.
baby's second bookout tmr. im enraptur'd! its euphoric!! ; even fo less thn fourty eight hours. i cant wait, its so mak'n me breathless n impatient. !! bt stil, i gota wait for da clock to tick by in sequence, i kno.
imma Eugene fanatic :)
Thursday, September 28, 2006
InwardConfloption
dinner'n @ cafe cartel'
coffeebean'slac.
tutor'n, dinner wif robb at cartel n nex. slackn at coffeebean :) it was nice though. reminisce a whole lot 'bout hw we met, hw we bcame dis close though we're both frm our contradistinct world. wel, i reckon; deres jus dis correspond'n kissn kin in us. muahaaa.
unexpect'dly,
deres dis tiny controversy inflict'd upon da anticipat'd fone call frm him to her.
she loathes 'em, wants none of it. anymore.
nt da calls, bt da controversies.
nvr enunciate verbals wen you don mean 'em,
they're screechy to da ears. stabby to da heart.
dis symoblises unimportance; picayune.
words endorses a whirpool of skepticsms,
they either leave it good; or, leave it bad.
its no time for caterwauls nw.
we'll see how.
he anna ominate im ll o erself; nd oone lse.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
InwardConfloption
SHE KNOWS THAT HE LOVES HER; LIKEWISE, SHE LOVES HIM.
being skeptical; how its bound to be a heartbreak situation. selfishness's her flaw, yet she chose to live wif it, dis gradually grew to b da way to counteract pandora's box. she has so much grown from an innocent liv'n doll into someone whom's inexplicable to comprehend. she refus'd to bow to possessories, she blieves; dis might bring her dwn. excruciate's not in her vocab, shes not gona fall, she wouldn allow herself to plunge; she'll cushion herself frm al criticals. shes not creatn a barrier fo puerile thoughts, instead; she allow'd 'em for further driftn under her will, her own accord. she disgust losin, she wouldn tear dwn her pride; its da last thing she'l ever do.
nw she realis'd, its time for a chng, or; undergo da risk of losing someone. she builds a pillar in disguise, a pillar to create a vacancy between herself and realities; a vacancy which breaks apart. she lacks reliances; convictions, she searches for 'em frantically, n ended up wif annihilations. shes doubt'n herself, los'n herself, hidd'n n undetect'd. she barrels away whenever meanness was implement'd. shes running her own parade, a show of her very own, she doesn' nd anyone to validate to her, no complies's nd'd. she ventures on her own individual n noone else, she nds no others to enter into da doors to her heart. she understands da nd to get a getaway, she knows da redundances of dese. shes lik any other girls, mindset being able to rule over da heart isnt prohibit'd. dese intrications kill'd n drain'd her away, away frm love.
she loves herself more thn anythn' else in da world; even more thn her piles of gold, she nds to let her guard off, she knows. please forgive her, shes stil livin' in self delusions. shes left hollow'd.
they dont kno what goes on when the lights go out, but know the road is still long. temperatures rising, i dont wanna feel im in a wrong place to be real.
Digressing,
YAYYYY! IM SO HAPPY. I'VE FINALLY FOUND DA ANSWER TO MYSELF !
Question:
- why do i always inflict irrelevant thoughts into a relationship?
Answer:
- BECAUSE, MY TEACHER DIDNT TEACH ME HOW TO LOVE. IT WASNT IN THE SYLLABUS, NOT EVEN NOW. :)
bahahahahhaa.
well, i gt dis answer after daz'n outta da panes fo estimately, twenty minutes. and im soso satisfied wif da answer i got for myself !! lalalalaaaa.
InwardConfloption
she kps losin' her niche. its her heart she cant entrust; convict.
she sees him walk'n thru dat door.
she dont wana tke da fall.
how forlorn'd; crisis implement'd.
is she something even?
her destination's nowhere to b found.
she holds da same recognit'n wif da girls,
shares da same individual.
it makes her nothing.
nothing, for real.
ignore her. leave her alone.
who shal distinguish her frm da rest?
shes gettn herself spinn'd ard. (in dis phrase, fil'd wif uncertainties. indeed)
is assurances; poise provid'd?
probably yes.
bt, she doesnt get it.
or maybe,
she don' wanna.
she sees him walk'n thru dat door.
she dont wana tke da fall.
how forlorn'd; crisis implement'd.
is she something even?
her destination's nowhere to b found.
she holds da same recognit'n wif da girls,
shares da same individual.
it makes her nothing.
nothing, for real.
ignore her. leave her alone.
who shal distinguish her frm da rest?
shes gettn herself spinn'd ard. (in dis phrase, fil'd wif uncertainties. indeed)
is assurances; poise provid'd?
probably yes.
bt, she doesnt get it.
or maybe,
she don' wanna.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
InwardConfloption
school for a super abrupt while, slackn at town n nex, tutor'n.
sat still out dere, saw rainbow'd colord glow of lights twinkl'n above dis individual of hers. her mind swirl'd like a huge whirpool as da colors blink'd. life's unpredictable, it glimmers like a musical carousal n attracts immersions of al; especially hers. da glimmers wldnt last, whoever defeats a stop to it, holds a million comprehensions dats unapprehendable. likewise; anthromorphobics always embed a stop to love; fo some kinda reason.
who shal speak for da indepths of predictions.
and who relies on chastisements
she walks dwn a streets fill'd wif blind'n lights;
a flight of unasur'd stairs,
torn'd apart.
she wouldn kno when she's falln'
holdn' tight onto da rail
lik her dominat'd love.
dis heart of hers is fanatical.
she believes dere'll b no darkness tonight
put da trust in his heart.
she piqu'd.
she dream'd shes answer'd.
she gets temperamental whn da sun kisses da sea.
FCUK YOU EUGENE, I MISS YOU.
FCUK DA HELL BACK, I TELL YOU.
i think, imma gonna bail you out tomorrow :D
Monday, September 25, 2006
InwardConfloption
sleep. sleep. and more slp'n. went grams today. met up wif mom's bestfriend frm Brunei. al in al, evrythn kinda scuk fo me today. mood'less for anythn n evrythn. apparently, without a valid reason. coop'n in a rm, isolat'n; contemplat'n da four corners, isolately.
shes conceal'n herself in an empty corner. she wans no attention, frm noone
entirety doesn' seems to b settn in plce.
she thought dat vociferat'n might allow her to feel bttr.
shes nowhere to b found, she cant find herself.
she rest against da cold, hard wall.
it seems lik da sky's falling, da moon's fad'n
shes under some bitter conflicts. bt, she doesn' kno why.
self indulg'd wif drinks, witfout stupor.
lov souvenirs wifout presence, a repugment.
shes despondent and bereav'd;
fo nothing.
petulant. truculent. ungracious
shes feelin' nothing. likwise; shes nothing.
confus'n disenchantment wif da truth.
take a walk besida me-
Sunday, September 24, 2006
InwardConfloption
on da way to his bk-in.
birkens baby got fo me.
nd bookout, st bookin. went beach rd earli in da morn to get baby's army stuffs, head'd dwn to town to get birkens fo myself; frm baby. bahaaaa. he claims tt its a heartache to him.. bt i don care. hehhhh. n ltr, rush'd bac to his plce to chng n diner wif his famm agn. steamboat, dinner was early bcus darlg's gotta b back in camp ard seven odds. finali, bk in. da day was spent wisely, none non alive. we feet soo much tt darlg's complain'n of da walks n marches in camp, n nw, he's doin it dur'n his bkout days. haa. i scorn his complaints at da moment, nw i miss 'em. no, or shld i put it dis way, i miss him.
da last goodbye wasn as bad compar'd to da st.
i treasurd da last sight of him, it was precious.
another seven days to go. i'm stil waitn.
she assur'd him dat shes gonna b fine.
its crackn insida her. shes lubugrious.
shes lika girl whom adord his love so much dat she wants evry piece of him.
she knows, now. she've finally found da one.
da one, whom she'l nvr wana live without.
nvr ever.
i cant pretnd dat im aslp, whn my tears fall frm my eyes.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
InwardConfloption
lonng TV session
Mustafa!
TCC befoe john tucker must die :)
st book out for baby, it was latelatelate! bt evry single minute spent wif him was disburs'd wif lorve :) da day was jus magnificent; sacrosanct. his bk-out was late. went dinner wif his famm - town - movie; john tucker must die - mustafa - late supper - long tv session at muh plce!! haa, mustafa was our last resort tk'n.. anyhws, we managd to dig stuffs out to purchase. i brand it muh happiest day evr fo da past two wiks! bahaaa. i HEART my baby soo much. truckloadsa lOrve for him. JUBILANT; kingdom come. :D
he gave her a note fill'd wif 'i love you(s)' which adds up to 1314 of 'em. he penn'd it dur'n lecture, at nite whn he cldn' get to bed. it melts her hart so much. she jus wana gif him a big hug n spurn out al thanks frm her to him. she knos shes missd whn shes nt ard him.
its da kinda comfort n love he provid'd her wif.
WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
you do it al da time; blown' out my mind.
Friday, September 22, 2006
InwardConfloption
marina
dinner at chomps
was suposd to catch dwp. bahh, al thanks to deb, mistake clinchd n movie unseen. head'd on to marina fo drinks. scenery was gd. bt, stars n moon weren existn, i realisd. it cld hv bn impeccable if dey were jus to b present, even for minutes; i'l appreciate n extol 'em lik deres no tomorro. up nex, met up wif pika n ying for dinner at chomps :)
to date, marks da omega. its an ador'd n venetrat'd moment she'v bn patureintn'. she'v gt tis intimidat'n feeln insid of her which is sententious. she doesnt wana slp, she wana adore da nex mornin sun wifout shuttn down, she wana see da sun kiss da sea. if da time would brake tmr, she thought, it wld b a phat; simpatico. she knos, time's gona run out, she'd be holdn' onto 'em lik golds in her hand. her mind's spurr'n, she wana fly up to heaven, pleaing for a spinnd time nw, n a stoppd time tmr.
she can smile upon those tears in her eyes.
she doesnt nd da world to validate her, she'l do fine al alone.
she'd so much lov to walk on a path of stars, detach'n herself frm complexits'.
dinner at chomps
was suposd to catch dwp. bahh, al thanks to deb, mistake clinchd n movie unseen. head'd on to marina fo drinks. scenery was gd. bt, stars n moon weren existn, i realisd. it cld hv bn impeccable if dey were jus to b present, even for minutes; i'l appreciate n extol 'em lik deres no tomorro. up nex, met up wif pika n ying for dinner at chomps :)
to date, marks da omega. its an ador'd n venetrat'd moment she'v bn patureintn'. she'v gt tis intimidat'n feeln insid of her which is sententious. she doesnt wana slp, she wana adore da nex mornin sun wifout shuttn down, she wana see da sun kiss da sea. if da time would brake tmr, she thought, it wld b a phat; simpatico. she knos, time's gona run out, she'd be holdn' onto 'em lik golds in her hand. her mind's spurr'n, she wana fly up to heaven, pleaing for a spinnd time nw, n a stoppd time tmr.
she can smile upon those tears in her eyes.
she doesnt nd da world to validate her, she'l do fine al alone.
she'd so much lov to walk on a path of stars, detach'n herself frm complexits'.
InwardConfloption
she rmbrd;
you dont kno wht love is.
someone told her.
shes beginnin' to reevaluate herself insid da mirror.
shes searchn fo her true identity, lookn' for a place to stand.
she askd, wheres myself?
you dont kno wht love is.
someone told her.
shes beginnin' to reevaluate herself insid da mirror.
shes searchn fo her true identity, lookn' for a place to stand.
she askd, wheres myself?
Thursday, September 21, 2006
InwardConfloption
i jus feel lik whimper'n dese days solitarily, in some small corners; somwhere. insomnia reignd over me, no doubt. time's haywir'd, im here accomodat'n. complyn' wif da game; da one who sleeps first gona fall. imma winner throughout, a pathetic winner who won in dis classic war.
digress'n..
imma captivat'd!
thirteens down; one more to go :)
nw i tink, biological clock's stimulatin'.
deres abundant things to do.
time's insufficient.
i'l c evry seconds - a hart of life.
i'l mke use of 'em.
wheez'n 'em into a grt phenomenom.
i'l nvr let you go, like a child letting go of his kite.
i'l abide wif da rules n stay wif you.
digress'n..
imma captivat'd!
thirteens down; one more to go :)
nw i tink, biological clock's stimulatin'.
deres abundant things to do.
time's insufficient.
i'l c evry seconds - a hart of life.
i'l mke use of 'em.
wheez'n 'em into a grt phenomenom.
i'l nvr let you go, like a child letting go of his kite.
i'l abide wif da rules n stay wif you.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
InwardConfloption
school. next, town wif debbie, jolin, tiancher, delphine n wanwen. slackd n bitchd for a short while. tiancher n i had been madd'n for five whole days! derangd n enrapturd'! got him a new fren, dey'r doin kinda gd. i c a future in 'em. wahahahaaaa. emma right Danny Danny? reachd home, (less thn 10mins) pikaa calld, affirmd tt he's under mi block, askn me to meet up wif him n ying. well, its a deceit! complete distort'n of da facts!! to tink dat i actuali believd. i mean, he sound'd real n convincn'. alas, slackd at our usual hangout, hk cafe :) deres tis damn'd waiter who scukd fcukn much. hw much i want'd to pounce on his bac n hammer him wid al mi might. until, he apologise. haaaa.
hon msgd, he's under da weather. admitt'd to da camp hos. i was dumbfound'd n aggrievd. evrythn's gona b pleasant, i prognosticate. its gona b another two days befor he's withn muh sight. sucha huge anticipatn'. biological clock's crawln; vehement, imma gettn impatient. i cant wait, it seems lik forevr. i miss da tickles, bickers n sooo much more. whteva it takes, am gona seize 'em bac tis weekend! i wish to speculate no more, im no thinker. i'l allow time to substantiate its stand. whatever da outcome, go wif it or not.
im curs'd. i tink, i nd some friendship tea. coincidences, unaccept'd. how caustic.
IM CURS'D.
InwardConfloption
sense it up n let 'em go.
you left unspokn'
ego defenses? a ridicule.
dorkshit; i see, ure under some avoidance getaway.
fcukturd bitch. dats nt wht bothers me.
MENTALLY INCOMPETENT, YOU
tis is nt wht gets me
one thing im sure,
YOU'RE DAFFY.
you left unspokn'
ego defenses? a ridicule.
dorkshit; i see, ure under some avoidance getaway.
fcukturd bitch. dats nt wht bothers me.
MENTALLY INCOMPETENT, YOU
tis is nt wht gets me
one thing im sure,
YOU'RE DAFFY.
InwardConfloption
I'm
A
Prisoner
Of
Your
Love
da moon's high up, imma stil star'n straight right onto it. my eyes doesnt shut. i nda compromise btw tinkn n breath'n.
i want no memories, dey'r lov souvenirs whn ure nt here. i nd none of 'em.
I Fcukn' Abhor Army. It Stole My Boyfriend Away.
he's missd.
. wan u t wor i ou
A
Prisoner
Of
Your
Love
da moon's high up, imma stil star'n straight right onto it. my eyes doesnt shut. i nda compromise btw tinkn n breath'n.
i want no memories, dey'r lov souvenirs whn ure nt here. i nd none of 'em.
I Fcukn' Abhor Army. It Stole My Boyfriend Away.
he's missd.
. wan u t wor i ou
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
InwardConfloption
elevens down; three more to go.
is it dat laborious to ease a person's mind? al consolations jus didn seem to relief. dese aren contradictions in her, more of heartfelt thoughts instead. she cant barricade herself frm bein a worrier, evrythn gushd lik a forgottn off'd tap. haunt her whn da sun sets, meddle n corrupt'n btw her heart n mind, collision isnt allowd. she didnt kno whn dese asinine thoughts were implement'd; dey jus approachd uninvitedly- by noone, through da empty corridors, thn into her life. she loathes 'em. so much dat she jus wana coma herself n nvr wakes up. slumbern's her sort of release, her kinda liberation, a form of let-go.
is it dat laborious to ease a person's mind? al consolations jus didn seem to relief. dese aren contradictions in her, more of heartfelt thoughts instead. she cant barricade herself frm bein a worrier, evrythn gushd lik a forgottn off'd tap. haunt her whn da sun sets, meddle n corrupt'n btw her heart n mind, collision isnt allowd. she didnt kno whn dese asinine thoughts were implement'd; dey jus approachd uninvitedly- by noone, through da empty corridors, thn into her life. she loathes 'em. so much dat she jus wana coma herself n nvr wakes up. slumbern's her sort of release, her kinda liberation, a form of let-go.
InwardConfloption
i attemptd to shut my ears down
bt my heart refusd to listen
my mind's nt goin da right direction
im exasperated
i nd a getaway frm right n wrong
heavy chains r imprison'n me
i got to run away
lika stab thru my hand, bleeding
doctors wldn't help
a victim, trying to seek salvages
we're not easy to comprehend as, together
possibly, only when we're holdn hands
or maybe even not.
resembling material luxuries, its not a compulsory
so if you need me or not
perhaps,
its not an issue
probably,
it doesnt matter.
you've had all.
im just nothing.
cus i understand,
you'd soon be gone one day.
because you cant see da tears.
bt my heart refusd to listen
my mind's nt goin da right direction
im exasperated
i nd a getaway frm right n wrong
heavy chains r imprison'n me
i got to run away
lika stab thru my hand, bleeding
doctors wldn't help
a victim, trying to seek salvages
we're not easy to comprehend as, together
possibly, only when we're holdn hands
or maybe even not.
resembling material luxuries, its not a compulsory
so if you need me or not
perhaps,
its not an issue
probably,
it doesnt matter.
you've had all.
im just nothing.
cus i understand,
you'd soon be gone one day.
because you cant see da tears.
Monday, September 18, 2006
InwardConfloption
grandpa
grandma
in love wif grandpa's spects
gram's for diner :) digressn, jus hung up - wif hon. hw wonderful n satisfyn it is to jus chat on da fone for lik abt les thn half n hr or so. weeeeeeeee. it mkes muh day !! ! n.. da conversation always mak muh luff muh head off ! i heart tis conversations :D i wana haf a record of 'em sooo much! i wishd i cld bungle up al o em' n so, i wld make 'em my kinda music.
i built som castles in da air. i wana implement happiness in 'em. and so, i'l bring u dere. even if its jus to see u smirk for a second. i'd kp u indoors, nvr let u out. despite of incurn complications, u cn run nowhere. i wldn let u drift. i'd slip muh fingers thru ur hair n watch u strip al ur guards away against me whn its time to slumber. i'l manifest my utmost lov towards u til da day u tel me genuine lov's dissipatd, dn its time fo sweet goodbye, for you and i.
you'll nvr stay; you'd b gon one day. i heard.
bt, its rejectd insid o me. ostracizd.
baby, time's nt up for a letdown.
you kno wht i meant.
grandma
in love wif grandpa's spects
gram's for diner :) digressn, jus hung up - wif hon. hw wonderful n satisfyn it is to jus chat on da fone for lik abt les thn half n hr or so. weeeeeeeee. it mkes muh day !! ! n.. da conversation always mak muh luff muh head off ! i heart tis conversations :D i wana haf a record of 'em sooo much! i wishd i cld bungle up al o em' n so, i wld make 'em my kinda music.
i built som castles in da air. i wana implement happiness in 'em. and so, i'l bring u dere. even if its jus to see u smirk for a second. i'd kp u indoors, nvr let u out. despite of incurn complications, u cn run nowhere. i wldn let u drift. i'd slip muh fingers thru ur hair n watch u strip al ur guards away against me whn its time to slumber. i'l manifest my utmost lov towards u til da day u tel me genuine lov's dissipatd, dn its time fo sweet goodbye, for you and i.
you'll nvr stay; you'd b gon one day. i heard.
bt, its rejectd insid o me. ostracizd.
baby, time's nt up for a letdown.
you kno wht i meant.
InwardConfloption
Tel me evrything wil b alright
Clse ur eyes n dream of me tonight
Tel me tht you wont just fade away
Cross my heart and hope to die tonight I'll dream my pain away
i'll see through evrythn n make tis everlasting.
Clse ur eyes n dream of me tonight
Tel me tht you wont just fade away
Cross my heart and hope to die tonight I'll dream my pain away
i'll see through evrythn n make tis everlasting.
InwardConfloption
JOSSY wifa straight hair !
tc n i. agitate ms-you-kno-who
okay, a slight mutation in muh today. went to jo's wif tc for straightenn of hair! result's turnd rather decent. wel, hair isn burnt at least. hehh. ain totali straight as wel, for wateva dorkshit reason.. i dun care. cus; satisfid enuff to learn dat i didn pull muhself into a bad haird disaster. tc's rather insane today. we posd pics, reason to agitate ms-you-kno-who; set sd walpaper in muh fone. okay, i mean, retard'd ppl does moronic stuffs whn dey'r bored n sick o evrythn anywhere! bahhhaaaaaaaaaa.
da dae tat she'v bn anticipatn's approach'n, she realisd time's nt waitn
in da miror, she sees da excitements in her eyes
nt a single idea of wht to say n hw to react whn she sees him
its oni five days away.
tis subtle n nondescript feeln insid of her,
dese r divine; beyond words can spk.
GODDAMN. i hart tis feel'n ! am feel'n soooooo sleepi nw! im soo into tis feeln. its bn donkey yrs since i'v had tis inside'da mi !!! im so excited to slp. SOO EXCITED TO SLEEP!
-UNFATHOMABLE
he' s nea, ye s fa.
sh want hi t kno tha he' kep insid o he.
thank jo's mom fer dinner :)
tc n i. agitate ms-you-kno-who
okay, a slight mutation in muh today. went to jo's wif tc for straightenn of hair! result's turnd rather decent. wel, hair isn burnt at least. hehh. ain totali straight as wel, for wateva dorkshit reason.. i dun care. cus; satisfid enuff to learn dat i didn pull muhself into a bad haird disaster. tc's rather insane today. we posd pics, reason to agitate ms-you-kno-who; set sd walpaper in muh fone. okay, i mean, retard'd ppl does moronic stuffs whn dey'r bored n sick o evrythn anywhere! bahhhaaaaaaaaaa.
da dae tat she'v bn anticipatn's approach'n, she realisd time's nt waitn
in da miror, she sees da excitements in her eyes
nt a single idea of wht to say n hw to react whn she sees him
its oni five days away.
tis subtle n nondescript feeln insid of her,
dese r divine; beyond words can spk.
GODDAMN. i hart tis feel'n ! am feel'n soooooo sleepi nw! im soo into tis feeln. its bn donkey yrs since i'v had tis inside'da mi !!! im so excited to slp. SOO EXCITED TO SLEEP!
-UNFATHOMABLE
he' s nea, ye s fa.
sh want hi t kno tha he' kep insid o he.
thank jo's mom fer dinner :)
Sunday, September 17, 2006
InwardConfloption
FCUK IT. i cant slp. its fcukn eight in da morn'n. dis is shit. dis is so fcukn filld wif shit. insomnia's dominatn al ova mi .. too much. far toooooo much. ain allown it to go its way. its getn plethoric. i'l shoot it to a stop. its ridiculous! it ain suppose to turn out tis way. muh time wasn' meant to b screwd ! haywire fcukturd!! ! its nt gona climb ova muh. i'l knoc muhself to slp nw. on da wall. YES. KNOC MUHSELF TO SLP. !!! NOW.
....fcukturd shits.
THIS IS CcccccccccRrrrrrrrrrrAaaaaaaaaPppppppppp
lik hw imma crapn nw, DORKSHITS.
....fcukturd shits.
THIS IS CcccccccccRrrrrrrrrrrAaaaaaaaaPppppppppp
lik hw imma crapn nw, DORKSHITS.
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YOOR
LOVE
IS
MINE
fo al tim. lik thi,
i'l kee o runnin bac t yo.
thi wa.
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weeeee.......... da longest chat wif hon eva !! , since da fateful day :) bt i kno, tmr's nt gona b da same.
today's harebraind. involvd in a wastd trip. so whteva, waive it. instinct tells mi dat issues wldnt b as simple as i thot it wld turn out to b, and so, ironclad'd. slackd wif loner, chimchim n huangna at town. kfc, next, sakae sushi. rite, i didn feast upon 'em simply due to da fact dat im too obese to feast durn da late hrs. it'l turn out to b a grt sin dat i'l b resinous'n abv muh forehead, against muh hart. bahaaaaa. anyhows, entirety turnd out kinda okay, well. at least to me, acceptable. afta some collisions in between causd by knocks unintentionally, fortuitously.
perhaps we gota liv wif tis sentence despite hw much i actuali difer wif it.
faults r thick, love is thin
waddooyou tink?
anthropomorphics; ful of complexities n intricacies.
one cn nvr disclose da truth until substantiality turns out in horrid.
paintd faces r evrywhere, wif a single lk; one cant tel.
timeliness is al dats nd'd to seek into da inner releases of brutes.
tis is unfair n jokey; no doubt.
its fcukd n pathetic.
yes,
without a doubt.
nt much of a help; i reckon. aww, by d way. i dun chrge-its foc ;)
today's harebraind. involvd in a wastd trip. so whteva, waive it. instinct tells mi dat issues wldnt b as simple as i thot it wld turn out to b, and so, ironclad'd. slackd wif loner, chimchim n huangna at town. kfc, next, sakae sushi. rite, i didn feast upon 'em simply due to da fact dat im too obese to feast durn da late hrs. it'l turn out to b a grt sin dat i'l b resinous'n abv muh forehead, against muh hart. bahaaaaa. anyhows, entirety turnd out kinda okay, well. at least to me, acceptable. afta some collisions in between causd by knocks unintentionally, fortuitously.
perhaps we gota liv wif tis sentence despite hw much i actuali difer wif it.
faults r thick, love is thin
waddooyou tink?
anthropomorphics; ful of complexities n intricacies.
one cn nvr disclose da truth until substantiality turns out in horrid.
paintd faces r evrywhere, wif a single lk; one cant tel.
timeliness is al dats nd'd to seek into da inner releases of brutes.
tis is unfair n jokey; no doubt.
its fcukd n pathetic.
yes,
without a doubt.
do urself a favor. go getta life. its big out there.
aye. sunlight raises your libido, i read tis. i'l help u increase yoor sexual IQ. forget abt da bk.nt much of a help; i reckon. aww, by d way. i dun chrge-its foc ;)
Saturday, September 16, 2006
InwardConfloption
she objurgates tis, she cant coma. all she'd do during da wee 's to mobulate wif da blog, and soon, she'll b dubbn tis her new bes-frn; deservdly.
he's missd.
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tampines to slack wif tc n jolin. today's intoxicat'n
wif my little own eyes; un-blindfold'd
what do i see?
realities synthesizd wif un'realities. tergiversation dominates da entire human elegance n da universe. da world's corruptd. pain administrd never gets its comforts. its da kinda sleepwalk dat nevr ends,
who'd b so lucky to get da acquired taste of love?
a week passd, you're stil an enchantment,
i dont like repelling verisimilitudes.
wif my little own eyes; un-blindfold'd
what do i see?
realities synthesizd wif un'realities. tergiversation dominates da entire human elegance n da universe. da world's corruptd. pain administrd never gets its comforts. its da kinda sleepwalk dat nevr ends,
who'd b so lucky to get da acquired taste of love?
a week passd, you're stil an enchantment,
i dont like repelling verisimilitudes.
Friday, September 15, 2006
InwardConfloption
she walks in beauty like the night of cloudless climes and starry skies;
and all that's best of dark and bright,
meet in her aspect and her eyes.
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shiying and pikaa. so swt :)
sister frm heaven; brother frm hell.
jeffry, da tuition kidd. he can twich one brow lyk muh eugene ;) 
sister frm heaven; brother frm hell.
jeffry, da tuition kidd. he can twich one brow lyk muh eugene ;) da cactus's stil breath'n. 
aww. its my brother's burfdae today! turn'd 13.
HAPPY BURFDAE. HAPPY BURFDAE !! ! :DDD
school's moronic today, learnt noth'n
tuition in da nex insert, for Jeffry. its so fuggn slackie, i swear! tuition includes, tamagotchi n tons of biscuits for accompany. bahaha. how cool. one and a half hour session in total, fortyfive minutes of laughters!!
met up with yingg and pikaa at night - da hk twentyfour hrs cafe; discussd so much abt miss-you-know-who. luffd our heads off. thank 'em; to keep her mind occupied. :)
she abominates now. she accounts a cactus lyka pile of gold; tremendous cravn for. pinning for eight days to swift past lyka bird. sadly, days r crawln. she detest ten to fifteen minutes of call and a single msg for da entire day. shes left wif no choice. tis is whts kpn her goin'. shes livn wif it.
da rainbow's one colord. come home n fill 'em bac.
da roses witherd. not her love.
da cactus's stil breathn. shes stil alive.
da air is so heavy and dry.
strange voices are saying things she cant understand.
its too close for comfort.
aww. its my brother's burfdae today! turn'd 13.
HAPPY BURFDAE. HAPPY BURFDAE !! ! :DDD
school's moronic today, learnt noth'n
tuition in da nex insert, for Jeffry. its so fuggn slackie, i swear! tuition includes, tamagotchi n tons of biscuits for accompany. bahaha. how cool. one and a half hour session in total, fortyfive minutes of laughters!!
met up with yingg and pikaa at night - da hk twentyfour hrs cafe; discussd so much abt miss-you-know-who. luffd our heads off. thank 'em; to keep her mind occupied. :)
she abominates now. she accounts a cactus lyka pile of gold; tremendous cravn for. pinning for eight days to swift past lyka bird. sadly, days r crawln. she detest ten to fifteen minutes of call and a single msg for da entire day. shes left wif no choice. tis is whts kpn her goin'. shes livn wif it.
da rainbow's one colord. come home n fill 'em bac.
da roses witherd. not her love.
da cactus's stil breathn. shes stil alive.
da air is so heavy and dry.
strange voices are saying things she cant understand.
its too close for comfort.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
InwardConfloption
cramps's a killer. umpteenth times worse than a harsh slap on muh face
i need some instant remedy
i cant cure it completely
no any other way
poppn in menstrual pills didnt help
it wasnt main cause for it.
date hasn' arrivd.
ITS KILLING ME !! !
you were there for her when shes in pain. now, you're away.
she've almost forgotten about your existence. the way you smild and laughd.
now she knows why, you're kept in her hart.
thus, you. outta her sight; nowhere to b seen
she's gona repeat.. shes still waiting.
she loves him. more than anything.
digressing,
dat someone told me.
i meant da world to her. overnight, she collapsd.
suddenly; i felt corruptd.
im into simplicity.
you're complicating me.
im sorry. you aint da one for me.
dorkshits. it turns me off.
and, thankue if you wld stop yr howln.
and now, i see how fragile lov cld be. but, we'll not die. not yet. never.
i need you too much to die.
im into you
im
into
you,
eugene.
i need some instant remedy
i cant cure it completely
no any other way
poppn in menstrual pills didnt help
it wasnt main cause for it.
date hasn' arrivd.
ITS KILLING ME !! !
you were there for her when shes in pain. now, you're away.
she've almost forgotten about your existence. the way you smild and laughd.
now she knows why, you're kept in her hart.
thus, you. outta her sight; nowhere to b seen
she's gona repeat.. shes still waiting.
she loves him. more than anything.
digressing,
dat someone told me.
i meant da world to her. overnight, she collapsd.
suddenly; i felt corruptd.
im into simplicity.
you're complicating me.
im sorry. you aint da one for me.
dorkshits. it turns me off.
and, thankue if you wld stop yr howln.
and now, i see how fragile lov cld be. but, we'll not die. not yet. never.
i need you too much to die.
im into you
im
into
you,
eugene.
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free me from pimples attacks!
great thanks to ms deb. :) [deb, jolin, jossy]
the man who loves me more than himself
its fcuktard today. entirely, screwed day for me.
had to manage an insane weeping, next, someone branded me a fcuker on the other end.
fcuk this day. im collapsing. im narcoleptic!
ahhhh. goddamn this. it scuks to the dickest fcukn corrrrrrrreeeeeeee!!! ....... eeee.
went to deb's with jolin. project was our main concern. to our amazement, we ended up settling into cleansing technique course. it was fun though, i admitted. and it made me suggest that i havent been doing the right thang to my face. now i see why its been not been a good skin for dockley years-since the day i was brought into this world filled with hatred; love. i dont care.
i cant exactly recall when's the last meal with dad alone. it was nice and sweet though.
hurrm.. like husband and wife :D
i looovvvvveeeeee daddy SOOO much! daddy's da' greatest man in muh dumbuped world!! !
ARRHHARR. i guess its time to flex your brain muscles. squeezn 'em damn juices out.
freeing yourself from the right and wrong.
learn to let go, dork. dont be sucha kickarse.
un-bothered'.
i thought that my day was bad, but you came along and made it worse.
fcuk that bitch.
things has turned out to be some ugly realities. now, i hear your voice as noise. the sight of you hammers me. a withered rose, filled with thorns. getting rid of 'em, how hard i tried. pricks inflicted injuries on me. i squinched my eyes, my hands up. a white flag rised above. judges, crowds saw what i meant. every word preached, i shunned it. i love the way it is, shutting you down in me. you're gone now and always. leave it.. stay far from this.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
InwardConfloption
overview pictures of my hon :)
he's getting drained in thailand
okay, now he's drained
on his way to disaster LOL
its euphoria!
the last fcuktard face he gave me before he's on his way
it says all
last picture taken
its an arbitrary to feature pika and chimp without my baby EUGENE.
i mean, how on earth can i forget about featuring my sunshine? no way! :DD
he stands tall.
tops going for L and XL.
bottoms going for thirty two.
he's able to lift up one brow, it tickles me to cloud nine.
his shoe size is going at twelve.
both eyes involving a single and a double eyelid.
he's no other than my boyfriend; EUGENE.
away, serving the nation. for, i dont know why
much appreciated for whole-shebang darling. he's nowhere within my sight.
anyhows, our heart's still beating as one.
all alone in this world filled with love,
i thought i've had none.
solitariness,
i used to bid with a warm hi, clinging with a smile.
predicaments arised.
i shun away with all might.
to no avail.
far away, i saw a glimpse of light.
there,
i saw a boy,
standing.
i lifted myself up despite of the pains inflicted on me.
there,
i know,
its whom i'll find paradise with, albeit the journey.
he's getting drained in thailand
okay, now he's drained
on his way to disaster LOL
its euphoria!
the last fcuktard face he gave me before he's on his way
it says all.jpg)
last picture taken
its an arbitrary to feature pika and chimp without my baby EUGENE.
i mean, how on earth can i forget about featuring my sunshine? no way! :DD
he stands tall.
tops going for L and XL.
bottoms going for thirty two.
he's able to lift up one brow, it tickles me to cloud nine.
his shoe size is going at twelve.
both eyes involving a single and a double eyelid.
he's no other than my boyfriend; EUGENE.
away, serving the nation. for, i dont know why
much appreciated for whole-shebang darling. he's nowhere within my sight.
anyhows, our heart's still beating as one.
all alone in this world filled with love,
i thought i've had none.
solitariness,
i used to bid with a warm hi, clinging with a smile.
predicaments arised.
i shun away with all might.
to no avail.
far away, i saw a glimpse of light.
there,
i saw a boy,
standing.
i lifted myself up despite of the pains inflicted on me.
there,
i know,
its whom i'll find paradise with, albeit the journey.
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